最后一程

事发当天，才知道原来悲伤的程度是那么的深。现在在写这篇文章的我，还是有些哽咽。是吧，亲如家人，所以才会那么情不自禁，一朵梅花掉了一片花瓣，另外四片会把这片凋零的花瓣拱着。

星期天下午，和友人去他家见他最后一面。在此谢谢友人驾车，因为那时候的我，还是在悲伤的谷底，精神不是太好。那是一场佛教的丧礼，在门前搭了一个凉棚，摆放了几张桌子。去到的时候，伯母和她的朋友亲戚在家门前聊着。我们到了以后，才说了几句话，伯母的眼眶就红了起来。不，别让伯母又伤心起来，借词去看他最后一面，好让她平伏心情吧。

踏进客厅，三天前，我还在这儿陪他说话；今天，他却躺在棕色木棺里。木棺前，放了他在面子书的个人资料照片。我记得他说过，他很喜欢这张照片，这是他在日本一些文件上的正式照。为了申请一些事物而拍的。伯母说，他们选了这张照片，因为和离开前的他的样子比较相近。还没走到木棺，我就开始泪盈满眶了。木棺里的他，眼睛微张，嘴巴也在开着。伯母说其实他去得很安详，由于肌肉开始萎缩，所以闭上了的嘴唇才会是张开的。我不知道我站着看了他多久。虽然他的灵魂已经离开了他的身躯，说得白一些，那是一举尸体，不，我不害怕，这是我最后一次可以看到他了，我怎么可以不多看就一些。他的姐姐拍了拍我的肩膀，说道：“他已经解脱了。”是的，我们也要放下了。

伯母说星期六早上大约八点，就看到他平躺在地上。心里打了一个凸，连忙去扶他起来，同时唤伯父。伯父把他抱在怀里，让伯母帮他梳洗。过后，他问，哥哥姐姐呢？伯母说呀，哥哥姐姐还没回来呢。或许是看到他的情形不大对劲吧，伯父伯母告诉他说，如果他要离开了，就安心的离开吧。还有哥哥姐姐照顾父母，他不需要担心的。然后，在第三次深呼吸以后，他就安宁地与世长辞了。大约九点，医生来到，证实他离开了。知道他去得安详，我当时放下了。我没问细节，因为都不重要了。他离开了，这已经是一个不争的事实，死者已异。医师是一名佛教徒，劝勉伯父伯母节哀顺变，现在缘分已经尽了，他已经跟随佛祖的脚步向西而行。否则·，如果有缘，以后还是会再相聚的。明天就会出殡，然后火化。还在考虑着骨灰放置地点。他喜欢槟岛，或许是极乐寺吧，再看吧。伯父在后院，伯母说伯父可能还不太能接受，需要比较多的时间。让伯父静静吧，然后我和朋友就离开了，原来都过了一个小时了。

第二天早上十时半，仪式开始前，他姐姐问我们几个朋友还要看他最后一面吗？要盖棺了。不需要了。他永远都在我的心里。友人说他哥哥提到说，在星期五晚上，他说，怎么外面那么吵。那时候家人就奇怪了，外面不吵啊。他问，哥哥姐姐呢。伯母说，这星期哥哥姐姐有事情要处理，还没回来呢，你要见他们吗，我致电给他们，让他们现在回来，好吗？善解人意的他，可想而知都是摇了摇头说不需要。鬼怪之说很玄，生命更玄。如果他没有去日本，这一切是否就不会发生？我相信是福不是祸，是祸躲不过。如果他还在日本，大地震事件又会否影响他呢。命运自有安排。至少还有2个月和他最放不下的父母家人相聚，无可求了吧。我到现在还记得，当他知道自己患癌以后，第一个动作就是回来，他说，无论如何，我要和家人一起过。在后院看到伯父，还是在震撼当中的他，需要一些时间吧。

念经，抬棺，出殡后，我们去到了火化场。念经和仪式过后，工作人员按了一个按钮，他和木棺就徐徐进了火化室。这个时候，在后排的我，虽然只看到她姐姐的背影，看到她一边手搭着兄弟，一边手好像在拭去眼泪，我想她忍不住哭了起来吧。在这最后一个moment，我也感受如此，更何况和他手足多年的家人。

希望他在积福山庄安详。希望他的家人安康。活着的人，比较重要。

借这一首歌纪念同时菲迷的他。我记得他蛮喜欢这首歌曲的。

他走了

这是一篇悼念的文章，或许会有一些伤感。但是我的心态还是正面的，我还是会尽量快乐的。

当日本大地震的一天以后，我们的心也经历了超等级的地震。

当日本十米高的海啸掩盖了农舍房屋，我们的泪水也掩盖了我们的脸。

日本灾难发生过后的第二天，他在早上就像我们辞别了。我并不是迷信，可是事情就是这么凑巧。在日本奋斗了几年的他，虽然现在大马，也随着日本的罹难者一起走了。

今天早上，我收到他的手机打来的电话。哦，还没按接听按钮的我觉得有些惊讶，千万他只是想说这个周末没有心情相聚，虽然这个可能性很低，但是在那短短的零点不懂多少秒之内，我的脑袋想起了这个念头。接了电话，伯母只叫了我的名字，就把电话传了给别人。那是他哥哥，我心想，事情可能要遭了，但是希望上天保佑。电话的另一头，传来了厄运。当时身在山区的我，虽然听得不是很清楚，但是我听到了他离开了的消息。

盖了电话，发短讯通知了一些人，周围朋友传来的谈话声分散了我的注意力，我没有想太多，只是想着还需要通知谁。然后我收到了阿Y的电话，在另外一头哭不成声的她，我不知道要说什么，可是当劝慰语出口以后，自己也忍不住了。我想身边的朋友被吓到了吧。挂了电话以后，收拾心情，活着的人比较重要，别让坏心情破坏了别人的心情。我都不知道，原来我真的可以压抑自己的情绪。或许尽量多说话的我，是另外一种暂时逃避厄运的表现？我不知道。回到家以后，坐在椅子上，忽然间，如长堤崩溃，涛涛江海绵绵不绝，一发不可收拾。

脑海里想起了大学时他的样子。笑得非常开心的肥仔。他永远活在我们的心里面。他的热诚帮忙，他的乌龙，他的大嘴巴，他时常sumimase的样子，他和阿C阿H说笑，他临走前几天皮包骨，皱眉头，勉强一笑的种种样子。我们知道，他最希望我们可以快快乐乐地活下去，我们也希望他在另一个国度过得安逸无压力。

从他发觉不妥，看医生到现在，这一切一切在短短四个月内就发生而且落幕了。当精子在很多个小时的追逐以后，一个生命开始诞生，尚且需要十月怀胎，才有一个完整的生命。可是，要夺取生命，可以是一瞬间，很多车祸都发生在一瞬间；要夺取生命，可以是一刹那间，海啸就卷走了生命财务；要夺取生命，可以是几个月的时间，也可以是好几十年的时间。说啊说的，原来，我们还有四个月的时间，比起罹难者，是幸运了。是我阿Q了吗？可是我庆幸在有限的时间，做了我们可以做的。

眼泪流到这里，已经满了今天的固打，要面对人生，要振作。余下的眼泪，明天才流吧，如果到时候还没消失。啊，没有如果，只有结果。窗外在下雨，让雨水洗涤一切吧。活着的人比较重要，诚心希望他的家人可以节哀顺变。希望日本灾民一切顺利。希望大家好好照顾健康。

Tasmania trip (Day 1 Story 5) Cataract Gorge Reserve, Launceston

After lunch, we walked to Cataract Gorge Reserve. There were showering rain, we have umbrella to continue our journey :D It is around 10 min walk from Hallams, if I remembered correctly.

I do not know how to describe Cataract Gorge Reserve. It doesn't looks like in the picture nor brochure, but it will attract one eye in real. It gave me a very strong feel, a very strong connection with nature. Is it because of the cliff split opened by massive earthquake? I do not know and it doesn't matter :)

The entrance is FOC. There are some regular jogger.





Wild life live peacefully with human.






We took Cataract Walk, then First Basin Loop, Zig Zag Track back to the origin. For someone who hike, Zig Zag track is easy.

Tasmania trip (Day 1 Story 4) Hallam's Waterfront Restaurant, Launceston

With the recommendations of tourist information center, we went to Hallam's Waterfront restaurant for seafood lunch. It is located at esplanade. We walked there from Cornwall Square Transit Center, around 5-10 minutes walk.

The one below provide cheaper seafood. Although it is also called Hallam's, I didn't find out if it is the same with the one I went in the second picture.





A view inside the restaurant.


Hot & Cold Seafood Platters @ AUD 45.


Scallops, asparagus, leek & wild fish pie with traditional puff pastry & a delicate creamy filling, served with a crisp green salad @ AUD 25.


The freshly farmed Tasmanian scallop.


Surprised to see fresh scallop in a Malaysia style yellow curry. But we didn't order, we want Tassie taste food :)
How is the lunch? The seafood is very fresh :)

Tasmania trip (Day 1 Story 3) Launceston Town

After checked in to Launceston Backpacker, we walked to tourist information center to seek for advice. Arh, we have not decided where to go yet, just have in mind to visit Table Cape Tulip farm and Bridestowe Lavender farm, but not yet finalized.

Just would like to share some view of Launceston town :)



Penangnite, George Town! :p


We bought some sandwich and fries here, nice.




On the way walking to Cataract Gorge.


Wooden lamp post!


A restaurant claimed it was the voted best restaurant in Launceston in 2009. No chance to try since it was not open.

Tasmania trip (Day 1 Story 2) Launceston Backpacker

We stayed in a double bed room with attached bathroom. It was AUD 65 per night.


The shared kitchen. Please clean up your work after use.


The comfortable common room.


There are information board for temporary part time job, travel information and etc. No worries on not able to find activities :)

It's time for us to go out!

Tasmania trip (Day 1 Story 1) Fly To Tasmania

On the night before we fly to Tasmania, we refer to Greenhouse Backpacker on the airport transportation. She is very kind to help us to reserve seats for airport pick up shuttle. We wait at Hyatt hotel to Southern Cross Station, then take Skybus to airport. We did not take taxi because it was around 6am in the morning, taxi fee will be expensive :p We purchased round trip bus ticket at AUD 26 per person.

In front of Hyatt hotel in the early morning. It is less than 5min walk from Greenhouse Backpacker.



We took Jetstar airline. We were lucky to get Jetstar promotion where we purchased Jetstar air ticket at no cost. If not mistaken, it cost more than AUD 200 per person. Tasmania view before landing. Look at the green.


Visitors are not allowed to bring fresh food to Tasmania, even fruits. We had to throw away the banana and fruits into the quarantine bin.


If you have quarantine items with you, don't think of hiding it somewhere, a doggie will know.


The doggie bark at my backpack, because it has some smell of the banana I'd just thrown.

There are a lot of vineyard here in Tasmania, you can see it once step out from the airport :)


We took shuttle bus to Launceston Backpacker. It is AUD 14 per person, for single trip, AUD 24 for return trip. Taxi may cost AUD 32-35.



It took around 15-20min to reach Launceston backpacker. Tell you more on Launceston Backpacker in next post.

This is my day 6 for Melbourne Australia trip. But since this is first day to Tasmania, I've reset the post title...

Melbourne trip (Day 5 Story 4) Some Melbourne city photo

There are a lot of restaurant at Swanston Rd. Beside Mekong, we saw at least 3 more Vietnamese restaurant at nearby corner.We stroll at nearby area e.g. Burke St before walking back to Greenhouse backpacker.

Burke St. It is where China town located.







There are a lot of variety of food here in Melbourne. If you missed Malaysian food, just to post a few of the many.




Didn't went to check out if it is the same with the francais in Malaysia. It is getting late, I want to go back to backpacker house, take my shower, have a good sleep and take a very early flight to Tasmania.